Chaos ...disorder ..or lack of order ...unfaithfulness ...non-belief in existence of God or Godly power ...or human Wisdom ...they all point to the same truth ...that Truth exists. We keep going back and forth ...to different states of mind ...Life comes full circle ...many-a-times ...when we need to decide for ourselves ..our loved ones ...and for our so-called enemies ...which resides within as does the Truth...We want to cover our face and go back to womb ...remain in silence ...utter comfort of darkness ...the ether of amniotic fluid filled in our body and a blank mind ...with nothing to think about ...we just want to remain calm ...assuming everything is good around us ...except that such is never the truth ...and then it beckons on you at a point in life called death ...that all your life you hid yourself in darkness ...there is no worth of your death least of all your life ...
It's the Truth that matters ...the death that brings value to life ...the cognizance of worth ...the clarity of existence comes only after the experience of death ...The Truth dawns only after the darkest phase of life ...Sun rises only after the darkest hours of the night ...But by that time if you had not been aware, life is gone ...Truth remains in death and you repent. Repentance is the feeling of guilt that always occurs tragically only after you have lost ...if only you could repent before the loss ...you wouldn't lose ...You'd always be happy ...truly ? is that so? No ...Arjuna wasn't happy even after Krishna showed him the way ...Arjuna repented just before the loss ..yet he wasn't happy ...He was neutral ...Not happy not guilty ...So is the feeling of neutrality a greater state of elation than being happy ? May be ...May be not ...Neutrality can be an absence of feeling ...or absence of guilt or pleasure ...Neutrality is a state of mind ...Heart doesn't come into play when you're neutral ...It's a mind-game.But when you come out of neutrality ...the same feeling of guilt or pleasure grips you ...and it grips you hard ...jolts you to the reality of this world ...to life ...and to miseries that you might have caused because of your neutrality ...Miseries ? Yes ! Miseries. Misery of life ...of worthless death ...What happened to Kauravas in the Great war of Mahabharata? They all died a worthless death. History still recalls them as evils. So what? Since history or myth still recalls them ...it means their death wasn't worthless ...they exist ...even now ...in our minds ...homes...hearts ...somewhere ...around you and me ...Pandavas and Krishnas are only followers of Kauravas ...so they can create the worth of life by virtue of demonstrating the dance of death!
